It's been a month since I last wrote a journal. Wait, it wasn't a journal. It was somewhat between a really nonsense talk and a maniac's babbling. Heh. Guess I'm not good at writing stuffs.
What a crazy month. Seriously. So many things happened. My mind, my emotion, my feelings, all had changed. Not sure if it's good or bad though. Mostly achievements that I've planned many months ago. I've succeeded a few, some of them I don't have time to do.
Recently played EarthBound, and finished the game in 2 weeks, far more than what I spent for Undertale. Well, because the story was out of this world (I mean, it is out of this world LOL). I know why Undertale was influenced by EarthBound so much. I mean, I know Toby said that Undertale was based on MOTHER series. But, I didn't have a single thought of how many details in Undertale that was directly related to EarthBound. And because of it, now I'm playing MOTHER 3, or some may call EarthBound 2. I wanted to play EarthBound Zero, or MOTHER 1 first, since there are a few things that I need to figure out. And most of the answers are in MOTHER 1. But after some critiques, I decided to skipped, and just read the whole plot of the game. That was such a smart thing to do. Because my computer can't handle emulators really good.
Now, I'm in a period, just like half a year ago when I finished Undertale, that I can't listen to anything but EarthBound's soundtrack, and download tons of pictures about the franchise. Seriously, it made quite a big impact to me, since it's the longest RPG game that I've ever played. Even Undertale, the greatest game of 2015, only costed me 12 hours! Wow. That was crazy!
When I was wandering around Youtube, I found the tribute animation for EarthBound, and there was a beautiful song that appeared in MOTHER 1. I loved it a lot. The reason is quite simple: I want to be so optimistic like that. Like the title of the song states, "I believe in you". In the time when I can't just put my trust in anything, a little song to cheer me up is just what I need right now. I don't know. Ever since everything happened, I was in such a bad mood. I kept being pessimistic all the time. I constantly thought that people hated me, and just wanted me to get out of their sights or something. I kinda lost faith of myself. Now, all that was left was the conception that people just took advantage of me, but not giving me anything in return. I mean, I've done everything, and what I received back was deep sighs, irritation and anger from my girlfriend. I don't know what's wrong with me now.
Well, just drop some words here. I'm so tired now. See you guys soon. You know that I love you so much
Oh and happy birthday to dA, mah younger bro "I believe a dream can still come true
Why shouldn't I believe the same in you?"